That said...I long to be the ONE! Of the 10 lepers God healed that day, only one returned to give thanks to the God who made him clean and sealed him with the stamp of "worthy". Only one came back, unashamed, not caring what the other 9 did or thought. This "one" was not wrapped up in the lives of the other nine but rather his concern was finding "the only One" that really mattered!
That said...here is where I am right now...I'm not the one but I'm not the 9...I'm somewhere between (I believe
the word is lukewarm). I am thankful to God for all He is and all He has done, but (change of direction), lately I find myself comparing myself to the 9...
**I don't pray enough.
**I don't read the Bible enough.
**I don't cook enough.
**I hate to exercise.
**I don't love to clean.
**I stay at school way too late.
**I forget to tell Chris how great he is.
**I, at times, grow impatient with crying 2 an 5 year olds.
**I am the first to say I don't care what other people say or think but am the first to play mind games with myself and replay what that person "really" meant.
All while convincing myself I have it all together! I like to believe I have others fooled too, and some may be, but those who know me best know this is what I do. I smile and "it's fine" myself until I'm exhausted. Until I have a bad attitude. Until I snap at my sweet boys who just want to play. Until I am short with my husband. Until, until, until...I hear my pastor offer some encouragement this morning...I'm not sure his exact words, but this is what I heard.
-Be the one.
-Say "thank you, God"
-Give 100%.
-Worship in every area of your life.
-God saved us, THAT is what matters, not the 9!
So, when Jeff was done, here is what God said,
**When you pray, worship me.
**When you read, worship me.
**Whether you are making hot dogs, chicken nuggets, or "real food", worship me.
**As you "exercise" aka walk down those LONG halls at school, worship me.
**When you wipe the toliet seat with a baby wipe as opposed to a clorox wipe, worship me.
**While you work, worship me.
**When you praise Chris, you worship me.
**When you are loving on, reading to, playing with or discipling those boys, worship me.
**You worship me, I will take care of the other 9.
So, there it is. I don't usually put it out there for you to read, but writing it makes me accountable!
This week, I will try hard to be the one.
I will also try, in all things, to worship God. He is what matters.
